The screams of madness wake me up
like a razor blade
Cutting through my skin
spilling my insanity all over your bed.
Take the responsibility!
Take the blame from me!
Take it! Bury it!
Deep deep deep in your heart.
You thought the pills would make me sleep
blue, red, green, white
would make it easy for you
Controlling everything over my dead body.
How dare you stand there now.
How dare you look at me now.
How dare you say those words.
How dare you touch my skin.
Take the responsibility!
Take the blame from me!
Take it! Bury it!
Deep deep deep in your heart.
Because I am no more the same girl
You met that wintry day
I'm all together noth
They talk behind closed doors
Whisper as if nobody hears.
The room falls silent,
and the poison spreads
Like the last Plague.
And you call yourself an adult.
Chess with Death and Love.
Again and once more you crawl
from that room of darkness
All becomes undone.
The flowers stop blooming,
blackening like coal
And my voice drowns in panic.
Bang the walls with me
Bang the doors with me
Bang the nothingness....
Victims of love
Victims of Death
Victims of Life
I can see the worms slithering
from your lips to my skin
All beauty around
Blinded by the sin
Grieving for negativity
Dancing in fire of disguise
Blow me the last kiss
And let me laugh at your face
Lie through your teeth to me
Because when you do
I'll pull the roots
out of your mouth
I'll make you see
all the good you lost
You never knew, did you?
Kill and twist the words
Rotting out of your mouth
Make me believe
The good for nothing promises
Make me forget
Why did I fall?
I've been hiding behind
The mask of many faces.
Burn the poison tongue
Bleed the black blood
from your throat
You can hide all you want
No voice shall be heard
No word
Hearing the wind cracking the little silver heart
into the rusty old world to break into time
How much longer will I stand here waiting?
Endless love shattered against the skies
Screaming out Reaching out to you
Seeing only the vaguest shadow of your back
In the lonely night of a bleeding autumn heart
I remember the blood pouring out of my heart
Stabbed with words like thieves
The pain spilling from every inch of my body
Calling once more after you hoping...
Tomorrow.. Tomorrow... Tomorrow
Never came.
Let go of my soul free me from my misery
The silver shines no more, glitters with red
drop by drop into the deep ground
I di
Sliding slowly through our time
Precious life carried wastefully
One thing changes
Nothing's the same
Where to believe if not myself?
Wretched heart at roots
Dreams destroyed by the mankind
I'm waiting the bubbling laugh inside
Finding none
A child asks out of curiousity
what is love
Left alone at the dead end of the world
Bitter cries
Be happy for me too
Flowing out of the blooming life
Insecurities tied hearts together
We can't be
Without being
What did you believe if not in yourself?
Laughing to my stupidity
Freedom taken by the shallow tide of love
Living with the laugh at heart, Are you?
With the bubbles sky high
Die
Bleed
Cry
to make you the way you are
Love
Burn
Smile
to seal you away from others
Hope
Pray
Believe
to save you from yourself
What to expect, when darkness overcomes a heart
so pitch black, that I feel my rib cage break?
Standing on the edge of the wall, laughing
At your fearful face, crawling to be between
A child scattering petals at my past.
To make you the way you are
dancing laughing blinding
To seal you away from others
locking burying drowning
To save you from yourself
suffering despising breaking
Watching closely, a process that never ends
Lustful and terrorizising, growing inside slowly
Waiting in silenc
Ripping off the happiness
filling in with jealousy
did you know that I'm sad?
Like a paper cut in my heart
with this I want to run away
and never tell anyone.
After all I'm just a child
playing these stupid games
which adults seems to favor.
looking up and smiling
wanting to believe it is true
how could I have known?
I tried so hard to ignore
To be strong and laugh
all that frustration off
with the hint of sarcam
but now it is breaking
after all ain't that strong
to hold out my love.
Rethinking the pen in my hand
paper cuts are so small
in numbers more than
a stabbing cut in a heart
The wreck and destruction
are so
I am only
another empty dream,
inside a dreamless dream.
False Reality
Where I find nothing
besides darkness.
Here,
You are free to
Deceive & Lie
Here,
you are allowed to
Betray & Cheat
I won't mind
I'll watch
I'll listen
Whatever pleases you.
Because It's only a dream
I can wake up,
Destroy your foolish ideals
without a trace of pain
caused by someone like you.
Doupting, searching, thinking
Chemically possible
Manually incompleted
They say:
It's the one and only
what?
Me.
My thoughts.
My mastering world.
Completely absurd
Comparing to someone like
You.
Your thoughts.
Your mastering degree
in philosohy.
I'm a record without a copy.
You are trying to beat
the life out of my heart.
Success never reached.
I'm still alive.
Breathing.
Fighting.
About to give up?
Even the limited edition
is sold out.
I'm the only record
of my own existence.
Purposeful meaning.
Lies and deceits
Virus like you.
Killing unique worlds like dreams
Holding a pen on this small hand of a child
Once innocent one is made into a lustful beast
By mother, By father, By brother, By her own sister!
What can you expect from a happy (abusing) family?
Love (Rape), Care (Seduce), Tenderness (Violence)
Lies Lies Lies cover your poor ears from my fairy tale.
To stick it in and out
To slide it deep into veins
Bursting blood on the walls
Everyone of them
Suffering the way she did
Until the end
Realizing they were gone forever
No more suffering at night
La la laa the little miss sharpie murderer
La la laa Dancing on the top of her family
Burn my ashes on a windy day la la laa
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